My heart and dream job is to work from home full time, running the ministry, I have founded and love with everything in me, studying His word, and writing what He teaches me down so they might learn something. Working and writing while the laundry is going, while Isaac runs around with his trains and trucks and with the puppy sleeping next to me, sounds just perfect. Almost too perfect.
As I spent the weekend with Him, I read about Him, I talked to Him, I cried out as loud as I could and I praised Him with my whole heart. I came home renewed, refreshed and excited about what He had in store for my "new normal".
Excited, yes. Ready, yes. Willing, yes. So as I spent some time reviewing what I read over the weekend I was over come with emotion. Tears stream down my face at the thought of how much He actually cares about what is happening in my daily life. I read, re-read and re-read again, Psalm 119. And still, I cannot really grasp the love, the faithfulness, the accuracy and the relevant words within the 176 verse of Psalm 119.
"Your faithfulness continues through all generations; you established the earth, and it endures." verse 90
His Word stands firm and will stand the test of time, no matter what this life may bring.
"My soul is weary with sorrow; strengthen me according to your word." verse 28
I will cling to this verse as I make arrangements to put my most beloved dog down. I will own this verse as I try to explain to my two year old son what happened to his puppy and why she is not at home any more. And I will repeat this verse over and over again as I go to bed without her warm body at my feet.
"Your word is a lamp unto my feet and a light for my path." verse 105
I will meditate over this verse as I go about my new normal and wait for the Lord to provide direction and income for our family.
"I am your servant; give me discernment that I may understand your statutes." verse 125
I will pray this verse over and over as I wait for Him to show me where to go and what to do.
I will continue to read this Psalm, over and over again, until I know almost every one of the 176 verse within the pages. I will pray the words of His word over and over as the days continue and I will remember my trip to Texas as a trip that brought me to the feet of my Savior.
Who knew, one airplane ticket, a night in a hotel room alone and some time with a woman named Beth would change my life.