Monday, February 8, 2010

Changes... I hate change...

There have been a lot of changes in my personal life over the past few weeks. Sorry about not writing for a while, but I really just had to take some time and “discuss” the changes with Him. And by “discuss”, I mean passionately talk about in a very large and firm voice.

I am not a person who thrives on change, in fact, change makes me anxious, nervous, fearful and frankly just plain old pissed off. But, now that a little bit of time has passed, I am more at peace with the changes. I am okay with where the Lord is taking me and what He is doing in my life.

I recently spent some time with Him, curled up in my bed, surrounded by pillows and lots of blankets. I opened His word, and this is what I found.

Isaiah 30:15-18 (New International Version)

15 This is what the Sovereign LORD, the Holy One of Israel, says:
"In repentance and rest is your salvation,
in quietness and trust is your strength,
but you would have none of it.

16 You said, 'No, we will flee on horses.'
Therefore you will flee!
You said, 'We will ride off on swift horses.'
Therefore your pursuers will be swift!

17 A thousand will flee
at the threat of one;
at the threat of five
you will all flee away,
till you are left
like a flagstaff on a mountaintop,
like a banner on a hill."

18 Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you;
he rises to show you compassion.
For the LORD is a God of justice.
Blessed are all who wait for him!

You see, as I began to really look into what these scriptures were talking about I found out that this scripture was written during a time when God had warned Judah that turning to Egypt and other nations for military assistance would not necessarily “save” them. There is no amount of “discussion” that would possibly speed up the Lord’s timing for His plan for our lives. No matter where we might look for assistance, He is the only one we really need. You see, salvation comes from the Lord alone and because he has saved us, we can trust Him. We can be peacefully confident that He will give us the strength we need to face the “wars” or changes that may come our way.

I have come to learn that stepping aside and allowing Him to just do His thing brings peace, joy, excitement and rest. So for now, while I adjust to the new changes in my life, I will also sit back and watch Him work and praise Him every step of the way. After all, He longs to be gracious to me, he rises to show me compassion and will bless me as I wait for him. Right?


  1. I'd love to chat some time about all the changes and offer encouragement if I can. Shoot me an email if you want/need to chat:).
    Love, Sarah

  2. Mary! This resonates with me so much. I HATE change. HATE IT HATE IT HATE . . . IT! However...that being said...we are in the midst of what seems to be a change...or maybe not, it's up in the air? What do I know? Nothing really...other than HE is up to SOMETHING and HE is not letting me on the details. This time, even though I don't like change (did we establish that?) I feel at peace that our Father is doing His thing and His thing includes me stepping out of the way and trusting. TRUST ... and that is that. Keep me updated on your change, and I'll let you know what ours is (if anything) when we know.