Wednesday, June 10, 2009

A little bit about us...

It has been almost 3 years since life changed for us. We were just 2 years into our marriage, enjoying each other, loving Jesus, enjoying vacations, dinners out, late nights with friends, and then, everything changed. For a while, I had noticed a change in my man, I started praying over it, asking for the Lord to mold him, move him, and make him into the man He had set out for him to be. It was then, that I got exactly what I asked for… although it just took a while before I got with His program. The unknown came around and everything changed. In just one night, it all changed.

Something happened and I can still remember the day I got the call. I was working and Andrew called me, he was headed home from work, not really feeling well. Then, he called again and said, I needed to come home now. When I got there, something was not right. We called 911 and the years I now know very well, had begun. We spent the next several weeks, which turned into months, trying to figure out what was wrong. He was not the same, he would look at me almost as if he had no idea who I was. We spent days in and out of the hospital, nights were spent checking his vitals and making sure he was still here. I found a determination that I never knew existed. I found a power in prayer I never imaged. And I found strength I only thought very “mature woman” had.

There were days I did not shower, brush my teeth or change my clothes, and I work at the hospital, so I also got over caring how people saw me, real fast. All I cared about was him. There was not tim
e to make any phone calls or catch up on work; there was only time for prayer.

I spent hours praying over him in the hospital, countless sleepless nights just watching him sleep because it was the only time he really looked peaceful and I talked with every physician I had any kind of connection with. We looked into all kinds of possible medical explanations. We ventured down bumpy roads that seemed to have no end and we eventually found something along the way. By no means did we find “the medical answer” we had been looking for, rather we found something much greater.

We found us and together we have discovered Jesus, once again. It was in the middle of the night in the hospital when I crawled in bed with him, just to hear him breathe and I realized then, he was the strongest man I have ever loved. From that moment on, my life changed in a way that I can hardly explain. Nothing else really mattered. I missed endless days of work, just to stay home with him, and take care of him. I wanted nothing more than to be there when he got better; I wanted nothing more than to understand what was happening.
And yet, a few years later, there are still days of uncertainty and struggle. I can look back now and say with certainty that the past years were some of the best years of my life. When we got married, we said in sickness and in health. And I now know what it really means to stand by someone during the darkest moments. I love this man more today than I did a year ago.

I am honored to be the mother of his son. I am honored to wear the ring he gave me, and I am honored to have his name. As we approach the next few months, weeks days and even years, again filled with uncertainty, one thing I know without a doubt, we have an incredible God who can give miracles to the hopeless in their time of need.

1 comment:

  1. I will certainly keep you and your family in my prayers. You have such a strength! Thanks for sharing!